Musings on suicide: love might save a life

by potofcallaloo - June 10, 2018June 10, 20184

…every day I decide to live, another person, someone, chooses to die. Their struggle is my struggle, but they have now gone while I still have a chance…

When living is hard …RIP Avicii

by potofcallaloo - April 27, 2018April 27, 20180

For some of us, it is because we are searching…searching for something, some place that we are not quite sure of or how to get to. And sometimes it is because some of us have never managed to be truly happy.

The messy side of mental health problems : what the media & campaigns don’t show

by potofcallaloo - October 13, 2017October 13, 20172

I was surprised to find myself largely neutral to the widespread mental health campaigns being run to raise awareness. I’ve seen many of these, encouraging people to talk about mental health and problems like depression and anxiety. Awareness is good, don’t get me wrong. I’ve seen media coverage featuring stories of

‘Fibromylgia and wanting to die’ – World Suicide Prevention Day

by potofcallaloo - September 10, 2017September 10, 20170

It is by complete coincidence that I'm posting this on World Suicide Prevention Day. I drafted this post last week because I was looking at my google analytics, and saw that among the top searches that led to my blog was 'Fibromyalgia and wanting to die.' It's not uncommon that people

Hello depression my old friend…

by potofcallaloo - May 21, 2017May 21, 20172

My Aunty has died. For a moment all I could hear was white noise. And my world, which has been feeling more and more like an empty space, closing in on me these past months, has become even smaller. I can't breathe. I've lived with depression all my life. But I'm used to

Promises that must be kept

by potofcallaloo - May 11, 2017June 20, 20170

Right now I am thinking about the unconventional therapist who first, offered me her pot of yellow roses, then insisted on her beautiful cactus. "You have to bring them back to me," she said, "you have to promise," and I cannot forget the look in her eyes. Humans. Bizarre, intriguing and beautifully

Robbed

by potofcallaloo - March 28, 20176

I was robbed eight nights ago. The incident opened up a deluge of emotions I'd tucked safely away where I couldn't access them. 87284

Time to talk

Mental health

by potofcallaloo - February 2, 2017February 1, 20170

Today is 'Time to talk' day. Until my late 20s, I hadn't realised the importance of talking about mental health. 87249

It’s ok not to be ok this Christmas

by potofcallaloo - December 25, 20162

I get why people like Christmas. I really do. People celebrate family, love, and togetherness. It's supposedly the 'happiest time of the year.' But for many people, Christmas can be a difficult time. An emotional roller-coaster that takes off whether or not we want it to. The media inundates us with images of

Keep talking about it: World mental health day

by potofcallaloo - October 9, 2016October 31, 20160

Despite more conversations happening about mental health problems, there is still a lot of work to be done to reduce stigma and make sure everyone gets the help they need. 87180