I feel like my insides are falling out.

I’m sorry, this was supposed to be a happy post, but for the past four days I’ve had the most awful pain on the right side of my tummy. It hurts when I walk, stretch, move even the slightest and I cannot cough, sneeze, yawn or breathe in deeply as it feels like I’m about to burst and that side of my tummy can’t expand anymore without breaking something.

At first I thought it was gas, something IBS related. But as the days went on, and I ate and had peppermint and my usual probiotics I’ve lost hope of it passing. I’ve been wrestling with bad anxiety too, at times filled with utter dread.

Just another day with chronic illness problems, I suppose. I’m low on fuel. I need some oomph, and I’m getting what I can find in being mindful, my daily interactions with others, and trying to remember why we fight. Sharing with others living with chronic illness on social media has been helpful. Thank you. Thank you.

I hope you’re having a great week, whatever is going on for you.

Also, look out on the weekend for my review of the award-winning, acclaimed film Unrest, on Jennifer Brea’s journey with ME (Myalgic Encephalomyelitis), also known as Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. Hers is a story all of us with chronic illness can identify with. We know the struggles, the pains, and even amidst the fight, the triumphs. Let’s support her. Her story is ours.

Gentle hugs 🙂

Cover image by: Robert Zunikoff

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