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Releasing the broken chains


 

Photo by Brian Smithson

Photo by Brian Smithson

It was one of those weeks where everything that could go wrong did.

Still, I was hoping to get uplifted from attending and volunteering at Hillsong Conference which I was so excited about. I felt I needed something majorly great to lift my broken spirit.

But by the end of the week, on conference day I was bound in bed unwell with pain and such debilitating exhaustion I couldn’t keep my eyes open for very long.

I was devastated but thought I could at least attend the final evening session of the conference. I forced my achy self out of bed, got dressed and headed out despite feeling dazed.

But I didn’t make it to conference because a car reversed hard into me. View full article »

Just hope…


 

By pol sifter

By pol sifter

Sometimes we’re not always sure why we bother to hope against the darkness.

We cannot see ahead as we feel our hands about, walking aimlessly in the pitch black, yet seeking.

It is called blind faith.

Believing in the absence of proof.

This is faith.

I am in short supply of optimism, but faith and hope are always rife in my corner. Because there is still the greatest thing of all, love.

I am here because of love. Love is why we are saved. And we are born to love. Despite sickness, and pain. Despite emptiness, and unrequited love that threatens to shatter our hearts.

One day my love will be returned, and this weary heart will fill. I hope.

If we don’t have faith, hope and love, then what else is there?

Press on my sister, remain steady my brother.

Better days are yet to come. We hope together.

Gentle hugs:) x


surviving

In the song Feel Robbie Williams poignantly sings ‘I don’t wanna die but I ain’t keen on living either.’

I never considered myself a Robbie fan but I found myself reassessing this after I mulled over his lyrics which I found myself relating to. I thought he was really good at verbalising some very complex feelings which I have and had harboured in the past.

The lyrics above explain a feeling that has haunted me. It is a struggle standing at a crossroads with life and death before you, and not wanting either.

So what do you do? View full article »

Worry Not


 

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On the way home from church on Sunday I got drenched in an unexpected shower.

I was hastily walking over Waterloo Bridge when I had to stop and admire the magnificence of the place. I took this photograph to share with you – note the rainbow.

I had to give thanks, even for the opportunity to behold such beauty, such magic that always warms my soul and inspires creativity in me. View full article »


depression by Gloria Williams

There are so many pains that come with fibromyalgia, pun unintended.

We are familiar with many of them and in my support groups we talk about them. Think migraines, crippling fatigue, cognitive difficulties, irritable bowel syndrome, jaw pain, dizzy spells, depression and anxiety and the list goes on.

I never really associated post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) with fibromyalgia.

It’s awkward considering that research says that fibromyalgia is usually triggered by traumatic events like accidents, extreme prolonged stress, abuse… And doctors say 1 in 3 people who experience a traumatic event will be affected by post traumatic stress disorder

So in actuality, PTSD could be a risk factor for fibromyalgia and vice versa. View full article »

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