Photo by Alex Brown
I reached for the glass of sparkling wine beckoning me not too far away.
But before my fingers could wrap around the tall glass stem, I grimaced from a shocking pain in my hand. A pain that caused me to pull back from my glass of sparkles.
Damn you fibromyalgia. Damn you!
Sometimes these moments surprise me because I forget that anything is possible with this monster we live with. My hand was alright just five minutes ago. Ok, I mean, my fingers were swollen but that doesn’t count.
Times like these my Ma would joke “Oh gosh what you leave for me chile” referring to her own suffering from rheumatoid arthritis. She laughs but I know she empathises. Other times she would say “Lord, and you just start to live. But me, I already old, I had a long easy life.”
I might be 29, but I feel as old as my Ma in this body with fibromyalgia.
Excuse me, gotta go look for my bottle of Wood Lock oil.
Photo by me
In early December I will self publish my first novel.
I’m still quite busy preparing for that, though it’s a pretty small affair.
I’ve been thinking about it. The whole thing. First, I didn’t think it would actually happen with all the health and life challenges. I mean, I was writing things and then forgetting what I’d written thanks to fibrofog. I know people say ‘sure that happens to everyone’ but this is different. I couldn’t remember words I used often, I got confused and then I found it hard to concentrate on top of all the pain and exhaustion. View full article »
I wrote this post and published it with no content but then I thought I should explain one thing.
Some of you may be wondering what publishing my first novel has to do with fibromyalgia and depression and the whole she bang.
Well, everything. View full article »
Photo by Steven Depolo
This is a quick post, but today I was thinking of the various kinds of pain we have with fibromyalgia.
I was thinking on it partly because I was experiencing two different kinds of pain across my body! I thought it might be useful to highlight these as well as what works and doesn’t work for me as remedies. Remember I am not a doctor, and these are simply my experiences, not meant to override what your health professional has advised (see disclaimer below on main page). View full article »